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Showing posts with label Kazakhstan. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Kazakhstan. Show all posts

Wednesday, March 29, 2017

The Waters of March

It rained in Astana late last week for the first time this year, but today, March 27, there is a new layer of snow as the long continental winter reasserts itself.  The clouds thickened yesterday morning.  The snow began falling heavily by noon and so continued into the night.  Such is spring on the frozen steppe nearly a week after the Vernal Equinox.  What else should one expect when one is living at the same latitude as the northern tip of Newfoundland?


Фото Robyn Alice  McCutcheon.
View Over the Frozen Esil' River on March 20

But unlike the snows of February, this new snowfall will not last.  Daytime temperatures hover near freezing now.  Bare spots had begun appearing in the blanket of white before yesterday's March surprise, and for the first time this year, birds could be heard singing in the branches of the trees in Presidential Park.  The Sun now warms the skin and is setting after 7pm in this land of perpetual daylight savings time.

Last week was the spring holiday of Nauryz.  With the Embassy closed for three days plus a couple of days' leave, I rested without guilt for a full nine days.  Winter here is tenacious and hard, and the coming months will bring long hours of work with the coming of the Astana Expo and other events that will bring many a Washington visitor.  The week of Nauryz was a time to rest up and rest forward, a time for the first long walks of 2017.

With the coming of spring also comes the first hint that my time here will be ending.  I arrived in Astana two and a half years ago today.  I remember standing on my balcony sometime after midnight after my Embassy sponsor had dropped me at my new home.  I looked out on the Akorda Presidential Palace and the Esil' River and wondered how I would survive three years in a new job in a city where I knew no one.  "May these years go quickly," I thought.

Fast forward to last September 23.  NN and I had just landed back in Astana after five weeks in the US.  I felt conflicted.  On the one hand I felt ready to call an end to the work career right then and there.  I am tired, and my new home in Maine beckons.  The policies of the new administration in Washington are at odds with my beliefs and values.  All of this tells me it's time to go.

At the same time I never want to leave.  I said to NN that day last September that for as long as there is ice and snow on the ground, my time on the frozen steppe is as eternal as the Astana winter.

And why, as tired and opposed to new Washington policies as I am, do I not want to leave?  In part it's the knowledge that this will be the end of my overseas life, over a dozen years that have seen me living in Moscow, Tashkent, Bucharest, and now Astana, the fulfillment of a lifetime dream to live and work in countries where Russian is at least a second language.  It will be the end of a time that freed me and let me at last live the life I was born to live.  But more than anything else, I don't want to leave the people I have come to know and love.  I have family here.

On that night in September 2014, my apartment seemed cold and empty, devoid of life and love.  Now I joke that it's the young women's hostel of Astana.  First there was NN whom I met in my first week.  By December she was my official member of household living in my guest bedroom.  Then there was UE, my dearest friend whom I came to trust in everything.  I didn't even realize that at some level I, like many, was in love with him until he was taken from us far too soon, leaving me and dozens of others bereft and lost.  I cried more than at any time since my Mom died ten years ago.  The day UE and I paddled a kayak up the Esil' River with NN walking along on the embankment will always shine out as my best day in this country.


My Happiest Day in Kazakhstan
And through UE there came LB, LN, MU, TN, and many others.  Through NN there came XP, who spent many a night sleeping on the living room couch.  I could go on with a list that would stretch to two dozen or more, all of whom have filled my apartment with laughter, tears, and life.

Later, just one year ago, there came LT, my young soul sister who reminds me so much of myself at her age with the difference that she has an inner strength at her age that I did not.  LT now shares the second bedroom with NN as we work to secure her future.  I have linked my life and fortune to hers.  And with LT there came her most wonderful Mom LO who could be a role model for us all in her acceptance and caring for her daughter.  Together, NN, LT, LO, and I have created a family.


During Nauryz week we took long walks, shared lazy meals, and supported LT as she prepared for the TOEFL exam.  When she took the exam last Saturday, we all went with her and were as nervous as she was.

That's why I don't want to leave.  Astana has become home, and now the coming of spring reminds me that the time to go, still some five or six months distant, will come quickly.

But there is also hope.  Before yesterday's snow, we had already seen the first light rain of this year.  The waters of March and April are coming and bring a promise of joy and continuation.  As it was with Bucharest, I have put down roots here that I will nurture and cherish in the years to come.  I will be coming back.  More than that, I am seeing to it that part of my Astana life goes with me and puts down roots in the US.

My last winter in Astana has ended, but the seedlings tended through the long winter will soon bear fruit.  Spring, summer, and the future beckon.  The love goes on.
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The Waters of March, written my Antonio Carlos Jobim and performed here by him with Elis Regina, is my favorite Brazilian song.  "The waters of March close the season and bring the promise of life in your heart."




Sunday, October 2, 2016

Journaling in Kazakhstan

Many months have passed since I last wrote in this web journal.  It has not been for lack of subject matter.  The heights and depths of emotion and experience in Kazakhstan have been every bit as great as they were in Romania, my previous post, but the countries and cultures are different.  The experiences in Kazakhstan that have been of greatest significance to me are not ones that can be written about openly without whitewashing or otherwise removing all that made them significant.  Thus I choose to remain mum.

But I am keeping a record for myself in the old fashioned way that puts pen to paper.  I've kept such handwritten journals at other times in my life, and I can't say that I've gone back to consult them more than out of curiosity.  This time is different.  My last year in Kazakhstan -- the last year of my international life -- is starting.  It is a year I will want to remember in detail, and a handwritten journal kept regularly will see to this.

So what is to become of this web journal?  Writing here is also a good exercise, and I do not intend to abandon it.  There are still things in Kazakhstan I can write about, and as I get closer and closer to the end of the international life, my future plans will be more and more in view.  But readers should also know that most of what has been of greatest significance to me in Kazakhstan will remain in handwritten form.

With that caveat now aired and made plain, I invite readers to continue following Alice in State.  And if you have been wondering if the title of this journal is a play on words, let me remove all doubt by saying . . . who knows?

Monday, May 2, 2016

Two Wheels to Akkol and Nature

I advertise this occasional web journal as the Continuing Adventures of a Foreign Service Bicyclist, but the bicycle has been conspicuously missing from these posts.  It's time to correct that omission.

And there is good reason!  I just completed one of my rare longer-distance rides.  The story begins with Alan Bessen, a young ecologist and activist who would like to accomplish in Akkol, Kazakhstan, what the Green Mountain Club did in Vermont almost a century ago.  Before it is overrun by development and the leftover pollution from Soviet times, Alan wants to clean up the lakes, forests, and hills around Akkol and make them a destination for those who love ecologically friendly outdoor pursuits.  One of his projects is the first blazed, marked trail in Kazakhstan that will take the hiker on a 30-km loop hike through the hills and forests around Akkol.

When Alan visited the U.S. Embassy some three weeks ago, he invited me to a conference in Akkol on April 29 that would highlight the projects he envisions with the goal of attracting attention and investment.  I knew in a moment I would go and that I wouldn't let anything get in my way.

February Snowshoe Hike in Akkol
You see, I already knew about and loved Akkol.  It is a favorite destination for our informal international hiking club.  It's only an hour's drive to the north of Astana, and I was there for the first time a few months after my arrival in Kazakhstan.  We go snow shoeing there in the winter, and we go on day hikes in the summer.  The last time we went snow shoeing in February, I thought to myself what a great destination Akkol would be by bicycle.  "It's only 100+ km from Astana," I thought.  "Surely I can manage that, can't I?"  I started to think that I would ride up on a long weekend in May or June, rest for a day, and then ride back.  Alan's telling me of the April 29 conference moved up that plan by at least a month.  More than that, I would represent the U.S. Embassy at the conference and set a green example for all who were there.

Arriving in Akkol Under a Threatening Sky
And so it was that I headed out around 11am on Thursday morning.  The road north from Astana is one of the best in Kazakhstan, but it was still cool, only in the upper 0s or lower 10s C.  There was a breeze blowing from the north.  The coolness together with the breeze had me wondering.  I'm not in the physical shape I once was.  I had biked through the winter indoors on rollers, but my riding was minimal, just enough to keep me from falling apart completely.  I had done a 30-mile a month ago and a 24-mile ride the previous week, but 125km (77+ miles), was something I had done only once the previous summer . . . and that only because I had gotten lost.  As I got closer to Akkol, the Sun disappeared behind clouds and rain threatened even as I found myself stopping every 5 miles for a short rest.

Lake House
At long last I coasted into Akkol at 6:30pm with hardly any strength left in my legs.  Alan and visiting Almaty -based ecologist and activist Zhanar Sambetova met me on the main street, and we walked the final ten minutes to Lake House, Alan's rustic home on town's main lake.  By the time we got there I could barely move my fingers.  Zhanar had to help me take off my gloves and jacket.  I was that cold and tired!

Alan Bessen
But from that point onward it was a weekend of warmth and magic.  Alan already had a fire going in the wood stove.  He and Zhanar commanded me to sit and revive myself as the two of them got dinner on the table.  With the wood fire and Alexandra the cat on my lap, I began to come back to life.  The rest of the evening was spent in talking about the events planned for the next two days.

Friday's conference, Wake Up Akkol, was a modest affair at the town's civic center, but a number of speakers had traveled some distance to participate.  Dressed very unofficially in my travel clothes, I had the pleasure of telling the hall how much Astana's diplomatic community already loves Akkol for hiking and snow shoeing and how much more we will like it if Alan succeeds in his plans to clean the lakes and woods and create a marked hiking trail.  I found a number of microphones in my face afterward as local news correspondents asked for interviews.  This was one of those rare instances in my life as a Foreign Service Officer where I felt I was doing positive good just by showing up . . . and showing up, moreover, by bicycle.

Zhanar Sambetova Takes Me on a Bike Tour
Akkol Lake
After the conference Zhanar led me on a bicycle tour around Akkol.  There are two lakes right in and outside of town that would be ideal destinations for kayakers, canoers, and campers if only the trash that litters the lake shores and surrounding wetlands could be cleaned up.  As Alan later told me, the lakes themselves are in need of help.  Soviet methods continue in Akkol, and that includes the dumping of trash and raw sewage into the lakes.  As Zhanar, Alan, and I watched a beautiful red sunset over the lake that evening, however, I could see why Alan is so passionate.  As the Sun hung on the horizon, the trash dropped from view, replaced by birds drifting on a peaceful lake.

Alan's plan for Saturday was a day hike.  The meeting point for the hike was the town square, but we were surprised when we got there to see that the square was filling rapidly with students who, we surmised, were not coming for a hike.  Then we remembered that the next day would be May 1, which is still a national holiday in Kazakhstan.  The students had come to rehearse their May Day procession.  Still, somehow we hikers managed to find each other.

The first part of the hike was through city streets to the outskirts of town.  The houses we passed were  of a typical Russian-style wood construction, some of them perhaps a hundred years old.  Many leaned in one direction or another in response to decades of brutal winds and long winters.  

Hilltop View
Finally out of the town, we headed first into grassland and then up a forest road to a low hill.  The altitude was likely not more than 300m, but the panoramic view from the top showed just how rich the region is in hills and forests.  Before long we had a fire going and prepared a picnic lunch, sharing around what each person had brought.  Stories were told as we basked under a warm Sun and a clear blue sky.

We finished up the day back at Alan's Lake House.  Zhanar, our new friend Raisa, and I cooked dinner in the kitchen making use of whatever we could find and doing what we could in a kitchen with no running water and only the wood stove and a hot plate for cooking.  We ended up with what we called Meat ala Akkol, a mixture of beef and vegetables that on that evening tasted better than any restaurant meal we could imagine.

Zhanar and Raisa caught early trains the next morning while Alan and I lingered long over tea and breakfast.  Then I was on the bike again, feeling much stronger and happier than when I had set out on Thursday.  The previous day's clear, warm weather continued, and warm memories of the preceding two days replayed in my mind.  In Alan and Zhanar I felt I had met kindred spirits who love the outdoors and nature as much as I do.  The environmental movement in Kazakhstan is small and new, but it is growing.  Alan and Zhanar know what they want to achieve in Akkol, and is is my ardent wish to see them succeed.  With those thoughts in my mind, I made good time and was home in just over six hours . . . with a smile on my face for the people I had met and their vision for a Kazakhstan where nature is valued and nurtured as a gift to future generations.


Saturday, January 9, 2016

Ode to a Computer Printer and a Christmas Past

Today I placed an old HP DeskJet 400 printer in a trash bag and carried it out in the -28C morning air to deposit in the container to which all trash must go.  It was not a moment of ceremony, just a toss . . . and onward I went.

But although it may seem strange to pause and reflect over a now discarded plastic box of electronics, that is exactly what I'm going to do.  There are memories attached to that printer.

Christmas 1995.  In the latter part of my former life, it was one of the good years, perhaps the best.  Our son had just turned seven years old.  Relations with my spouse were better than they had ever been as we cared for our son and renovated our Silver Spring, MD, bungalow.  That year we had just refinished our basement and put on a new roof.  I had become something of an accomplished plumber in those years, and I still remember soldering those last joints in the copper pipes connecting the basement radiators that a friend had helped me collect from southern Maryland.  I didn't know then that those would be the last joints I would ever solder.

The days before Christmas 1995 found me at the Computer Depot on Rt. 355 in Rockville - Gaithersberg.  Computer electronics were to be a large part of that Christmas as we upgraded to whatever the technology flavor of the year was, maybe one of the first Pentiums running Windows 95?  I do remember with excitement that there would be a DVD drive.  As I made my way to the cash register, I saw it on prominent display:  an HP DeskJet 400 ink jet printer.  The price was a bargain, not even $100 as I recall.  Should I?  I thought about the dot matrix printer that had served us well but got excited over the thought that with an ink jet we would be able to print photos.  I added the printer to my cart.


Christmas morning was a good one, and I recall us watching our first-ever DVD on the big 20-inch color VGA monitor.  But it was the printer that stole the show.  It printed in color!  True, one had to swap cartridges to switch between color and B&W, but it seemed like magic watching the paper with printed image appear in minutes, a time that in those days seemed to us unbelievably fast.

The years went on, and one by one every computer-related device from that Christmas became outmoded and was moved to the attic if not to the trash.  The HP DeskJet 400 lingered longest and served us well until it, too, found its way to the attic, supplanted by something that seemed at the time faster and better even if I have no recollection what that might have been.

The HP DeskJet 400 gathered dust in the attic, alternately freezing and broiling for five or more years until I happened upon it again in the summer of 2005.  I was getting ready to go Moscow for my first overseas assignment as a Foreign Service Officer.  I didn't want to remove anything of great value from our home and was, rather, combing the attic for things we didn't need but that could still be of service to me.  Our HP DeskJet 400 was soon in a container bound for a new life in Europe.

For ten years the HP DeskJet 400 served me faithfully.  In 2006 I turned my back on Microsoft and switched completely to Linux that among its other traits gives renewed life to old hardware that is incapable of running current Microsoft operating systems.  I had pressed old computer hardware including a vintage late 1980s 486 computer back into service, and anyone seeing my home office in Moscow would have felt he was entering a museum.  My HP DeskJet 400 hummed along as she always had even if I could no longer find ink cartridges for her.  Instead, every few months I would sit over an open newspaper to refill the cartridges I had using a syringe.

My HP DeskJet 400 returned briefly to the US in 2007, but I think it was the return to Silver Spring in 2013 that broke her heart.  I lived only a mile from the home I had shared with my spouse and son when that Christmas morning dawned in 1995.  Much heartache and heartbreak had filled the intervening years even if, in the end, I think we all ended up in the places we needed to be, places that were better for all of us.  Our HP DeskJet 400 ached and groaned now, unwillingly ingesting new pieces of paper.  I had to feed each sheet carefully by hand much as one might feed an elderly friend no longer able to feed herself.

When I unpacked her in Kazakhstan in 2014, our HP DeskJet 400 would no longer accept paper no matter how carefully I coaxed.  In the end I put her aside, even buying a specialized tool so that I could open her and attempt a surgical cure.  Work intervened, and the printer sat forlornly for a year.  Only this Christmas, some twenty years after that Christmas of 1995, did I finally find the time.  I studied and diagnosed as best I could.  I thought I saw the problem, rollers that no longer had sufficient surface to grab paper.  I attempted a cure using pieces of cork cut to size and glued in place carefully.  Yesterday morning I put the HP DeskJet 400 back together, reconnected her to the parallel port on my old computer, and sent the print command.  Ever hopeful, my heart dropped as I saw nothing had changed.  Even with my careful coaxing, she would not accept the paper.  I opened the printer, adjusted, and tried again without success.

The time had come to say goodbye.  As I near the end of this Foreign Service career and look toward retirement in a small home in Maine, I know I will need to discard, give away, or leave behind many things even as I look to that future with joy.  This morning, placing our HP DeskJet 400 that had served me and our family so well for so long in the trash container, I said my first goodbye.

Correction.  In writing this note I am saying my goodbye.  Memories of that Christmas twenty years ago fill my mind.  I have no photos from those years; they were all lost during the years of heartache, separation, and divorce.  I have only the snapshots of memory.  For all the pain of a troubled marriage, there were good moments, and that Christmas morning of 1995 was one of them . . . when a wrapped box under the tree opened to reveal an HP DeskJet 400 printer that was still shiny and new, ready with joy to print what in those days seemed to us the miracle of color photos of a young couple with a young son for whom the world was just beginning.  Farewell, faithful friend, with gratitude for serving us so well and for so many years.


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PS -- If any of my readers are raising eyebrows over this ode to a plastic box containing computer-related electronics, let me help raise them further by informing as to what printer I selected to take the place of this trusty HP DeskJet 400.  After the HP ceased working shortly after my arrival in Kazakhstan in 2014, I went on eBay and purchased . . . a Panasonic KX-P2135 dot matrix printer not that much different from the Epson printer I had used in the late 1980s.  No refilling of cartridges needed here!  Ribbons are still available and last seemingly forever.  I've just needed to get used to that dot matrix printing sound all over again.

Thursday, December 31, 2015

Year's End on the Frozen Steppe

December 29.  The autumn and winter that until now have been mild turned seasonal today.  The temperature dropped to -10C, the snow fell heavily, and the wind howled so fiercely that it woke me at 4am.  The walk to the Embassy, normally ten minutes in good weather, took twice as long as I walked sideways at times to make progress into the wind and shield myself from the biting snow.
Mid-December View of Astana and the Esil River
I say today was seasonal, but I'm getting used enough to Astana that even the "mild" weather of the preceding weeks would be seen differently by someone accustomed to the East Coast of the US.  Suffice it to say that I was snow shoeing last weekend and that ice houses have dotted the Esil River for some weeks now.  For anyone who wants to see winter in all her glory, Kazakhstan's northern steppe -- same latitude as Newfoundland and Labrador -- should rank high as a desirable destination.  Even if we have yet to see the -40C temperatures of a year ago, it is nevertheless abundantly clear that winter, Kazakhstan's longest season, has arrived.


With Colleagues at Astana's Ice City
It is a good time for brooding in all senses.  If some of that brooding seemed to take a negative turn in my last post (The Last Thing on My Mind), it did lead to a positive decision:  my overseas career will end when I depart Kazakhstan in mid-2017.  I will finish out my final two years in the Foreign Service back in Washington, closer to family and to home as I ease toward retirement.

That decision, once made, has had an effect I did not foresee.  Much as a person who is terminally ill might do all she or he can to live his/her life to the fullest that health will allow, so I, too, now know when my overseas life will end.  It has put a focus on the next year and a half that would not have been there had I not chosen to return to the US.  The next eighteen months are there to be lived fully and well so that there will be no retrospective regrets in the years to follow.  The closer the end date comes, the more precious each day will be.

Ten years.  My overseas career with the State Department began in September 2005 when I boarded a plane in New York bound for Moscow.  Since then I've only worked in the US for one year plus some months for language training.  I already find myself looking back with memories, some bad but mostly good.

Moscow.  It was a dream come true to be assigned to Embassy Moscow.  I traveled for the first time as a tourist to the Soviet Union in 1978 and then again in 1981.  In 1987-88 I spent six months on an IREX grant based mainly in Leningrad but with occasional travel to Moscow and Armenia, and this was followed by travel for conferences in 1994 and 2003.  Returning to Moscow in 2005, I felt I had landed in a city much changed from the one I remembered in the Soviet period.  The city was bright and alive with culture and commerce, and I spent every spare hour I could soaking it in.  My sisters came to visit, and my son spent a long summer.  When I landed in Moscow in 2005, it seemed that two years would last forever.  When the movers arrived to pack me out in August 2007, I had tears in my eyes.  The two years felt more as if they had been two months.

Tashkent.  I had never been to Central Asia before I arrived at Embassy Tashkent in April 2008, but I had long wanted to go there.  My interest in Uzbekistan had been there ever since the days I had devoted myself to researching the Stalin period purges in Soviet astronomy.  The fate of the Tashkent Astronomical Observatory and its director Alexander Postoev were key to many of the cascading events that extended all the way to Leningrad and that consumed the country's best astronomers.  Now I got to visit that observatory at last and share archival papers with the current director who was striving to restore the observatory's lost history.  Even if much of my life was being ever more consumed by a long and contentious divorce, I traveled and saw the historic cities of Samarkand, Bukhara, Khiva, and Kokand.  My son came to visit twice, and we took long trips together to Karakalpakstan and the Ferghana Valley.

Bucharest.  I've already written volumes about my time in Romania.  As readers of my previous web journal know (http://attitude-analyst.blogspot.com), I thought my career was over when I first landed in Bucharest.  My assignment there seemed a disaster, but instead my three years in Bucharest were the making of the person I am today.  2012 was easily the happiest year of a life that has included many good years, and I now consider Romania a second home.

Work.  Yes, official work has kept me busy wherever I have served.  I've been busiest in Astana and in Moscow, least busy in Romania, and have participated in diplomatic endeavors that I'm proud to look back on.  Still, if I'm to look at the years I'm proudest of when it comes to official work, I will find them in the years when I worked on the Hubble Space Telescope project before joining the State Department.  


Christmas with NN
Life.  But when it comes to living and growing, it's been my overseas career with the State Department that wins out over anything that came before it.  I have made new friends wherever I have gone, and a few of them have become so close that I consider them to be part of my close family.  The pain of saying goodbye to PE when I left Romania was as great as if I were parting from my own son, but I also learned that distance does not have to break ties if the bonds are already strong.  So it is with PE, and so it will be with NN who entered my life shortly after I arrived in Kazakhstan some fifteen months ago.  I may have only one biological son, but I also have two emotionally adopted daughters who never would have entered my life had it not been for the Department of State.


Carving Turkey on Boxing Day with BL
And so, as 2015 counts down to its final hours, I look back and appreciate the past.  My Boxing Day reception with sixteen guests is now history, and NN and I will toast the New Year quietly at midnight, she with tea and I with a more traditional beverage.  I will think back fondly on all the friends I have made these ten years.  And then, with the fireworks that will fill Astana's wintry night sky fading to the future, I will turn and look in that direction as well with the purpose of living what remains of this international career fully and well.  And to all my readers I wish --

Happy New Year!  С Новым Годом!  An nou fericit!  Янги йилингиз билан!  Жаңа жыл құтты болсын!

Friday, February 20, 2015

Holding "Iron Felix" in Her Hands

Once again I sit in an airplane, getting ready to fly.  Today's destination?  New Delhi for a conference on cyber security that I had no expectation I would be going to until three weeks ago.  Such is the Foreign Service.

By rights I should say "last night's" destination.  I was to fly out of Astana at 00:30 this morning, but Motorpool picked me up only at 23:50.  I had already been standing and waiting in the cold for an hour and twenty minutes, making increasingly frantic calls to ask, "Where's my driver?"  It turns out my assistant had given Motorpool the right time but the wrong date.  When we finally reached the airport, it was too late to board.  By the time I was home and in bed it was after 3:00 am.

At 7:30 I simply got up and went to the Embassy to find out what could be done.  I had thought and was even looking forward to being told it was impossible to get to Delhi in reasonable time.  I'm not sure I was actually thrilled when I was told I could be re-routed through Tashkent, arriving in Delhi at midnight and only missing a half day of my training.  So here I am, about to take off, some thirty hours without sleep and eight hours of flights and transit lounges ahead of me.  This is all getting a bit old, and I'm getting a bit old for it.

But that was not what I wanted to write about.  Rather, my mind is turning back to my last trip, my first extended, one-week stay in Almaty, Kazakhstan's old southern capital city known in Soviet times as Alma-Ata.  Alma, by the way, means apple, Central Asia being reputed to be the place from where all apples that cover the world today come.  For me, however, it is the city where I held Iron Felix in the palm of my hand.

Felix Dzerzhinsky
Iron Felix, Zhelezny Feliks in Russian, was the legendary founder and first chief of the Cheka, the Chresvychayny komitet or Extraordinary Committee for Battle with Counterrevolution.  In other words, he founded what later became known as the NKVD, then the KGB, and today the FSB – i.e., the secret police.  His real name was Feliks Dzerzhinsky.  Of Polish roots, he was an ascetic, almost saint-like figure to those who idealistically thought they were starting to build a new socialist order.  He was the mastermind who was going to protect the new Soviet state from counterrevolutionaries and foreign capitalist agents who, so the doctrine went, sought at any cost to destroy the communist ideal and save the world for the rich and powerful.  In fact, he succeeded.  During his years at the head of the Cheka, the Soviet Union fought off foreign interventionist forces and numerous clandestine efforts to destabilize the new Soviet state.  He ran rings around White Russians and others who had fled the country after the 1917 Revolution and Civil War.  The émigré Russians, still incredulous at their defeat, were certain the regime of Lenin and Trotsky could not and would not last.  They plotted and schemed, but it was Iron Felix who played them for fools, turning them against each other and luring the most important ones back to the Soviet Union, prison, and execution.

I must admit to a bit of romance about the period.  I'm not apologist for the regime.  Far from it.  Rather, I remember watching the BBC series Reilly, Ace of Spies on PBS in the 1980s.  Each week I followed the handsome, daring, and always successful British agent from the days of the Great Game between Russia and Britain for power and influence in Central Asia through World War I and then to his support of émigré Russian attempts to overthrow the Soviet regime.  He was always successful, that is, until he, too, allowed himself to be lured to Moscow.  In the final two episodes he and Dzerzhinsky face each other for the first time, two masters of intelligence and covert operations finally together in an interrogation room in the Lyubyanka Prison, the headquarters of the Cheka.  As portrayed in the series, they have a respect, almost a liking for each other.  Their final walk together on Sparrow Hills, the site today of Moscow State University, cements that relationship even as Dzerzhinsky tells Reilly he will need to go alone from that point . . . taking his final steps before falling to an executioner's bullet in the winter snow.  The BBC series being, after all, a British production, leaves open the question of who duped whom, hinting at a possible deeper game played by Reilly in which he sacrificed himself in order to disclose the depths to which the Cheka had infiltrated foreign organizations.  History, however, does not share that nostalgic, patriotic view.

If I ever did have a strange romance for the period, it was shaken out of me in just a few words spoken by a young woman in 2004.  I had purchased a few T-shirts in Moscow, and one of them had a picture of Dzerzhinsky on the front and an all seeing eye on the back together with the slogan Будьте бдительны – Be vigilant.  Seeing me in this T-shirt, the young woman came up to me, looked me in the eye, and said, "That man killed my grandparents."  It wasn't funny anymore.  I never wore the T-shirt again.

Iron Felix
To see how genuinely popular Dzerzhinsky was in the Soviet Union, however, one only needs to look at the mechanical adding machine that was mass-produced and named Iron Felix in his honor.  In astronomy it was the machine that, together with logarithms, was used at observatories and institutes to calculate orbits and carry out all sorts of complex computations.  Much of that computing work was carried out by women, many of them the wives or daughters of astronomers in a science that at that time was almost the exclusive realm of men.  In observatory staffing reports from the period, they were referred to as computers.  At the time no one could foresee the day when these human computers, most of them women, would be replaced by the electronic computers in all their myriad forms that rule our lives today.

Now my story returns to Almaty.  I spent a week visiting and becoming acquainted with more institutes than I had ever encountered in such a short period before.  I visited the biology faculty at KazNU.  I was at the Institute of Genetics, the Zoology Institute, the techno-park, the Botanical Institute, and KazNTU.  I even stood right up next to the research reactor and two cyclotrons at the Institute for Nuclear Physics.  As wonderful as this all was, however, my heart was intent on another visit that I suspect no one else in my position had ever made.

Fesenkov Institute, Main Building
It was a snowy Thursday when we slowly climbed on slippery roads onto the Kamenskoye Plateau to the south of Almaty.  The road narrowed, and then we passed through a gate.  We were at the Fesenkov Astrophysical Institute.  Some thirty years ago, Academician V. G. Fesenkov was one of the central figures in my research on the 1936-37 purges in Soviet astronomy.  He survived the purges largely due to geography and a strong personality.  The purge of astronomers was most devastating in Leningrad, but Fesenkov was in Moscow as director of the Shternberg Institute.  He is reputed to have stopped cold the cry to root out wreckers among Moscow astronomers, and as a result the astronomers at Shternberg largely escaped with their lives and careers.

In 1941 Fesenkov led an expedition of Moscow astronomers to observe the total solar eclipse in the southern regions of the Soviet Union.  They chose their site near Almaty and successfully observed the eclipse only to find they could not return to Moscow.  Germany invaded on June 22 and rapidly advanced on the capital.  There could be no question of returning to Moscow.  The astronomers stayed in Almaty, and the equipment they brought for the eclipse became the seed for a new observatory that eventually carried the name of its founder, the Fesenkov Astrophysical Institute.

At the Fesenkov Institute
On that snowy Thursday I sat in the director's office as one astronomer after another told me of his or her research.  For once I was at a meeting where, unlike with geneticists or zoologists, I have some background and understanding.  I was in my element.  Even the main building looked and felt familiar.  One of the senior astronomers asked if I noticed a similarity with another building.  I had indeed.  The main building at the Fesenkov Institute, or at least its circular hall, was modeled on the main building at Pulkovo Observatory outside Petersburg where I spent many months in 1987-88.

We must have talked for two hours, and I was taken on a quick tour of several of the observatory domes.  Back in the director's office, however, one of the women astronomers, remarking on my interest in the history of astronomy, went to a cabinet and brought down an impressive looking mechanical device.  She asked me if I knew what it was.  I did.  For the first time in my life, I was seeing an Iron Felix.  A moment later I was holding Iron Felix in my hands, an electric moment of camaraderie will all the women who, in the rough conditions of the 1920s and 1930s, laboriously carried out their computations, in the process sometimes being the ones to make the discoveries for which others, more senior and almost always male, took the credit.  Along the way they drank their tea, shared their joys and sorrows with their friends also hard at work, and in the process tamed and bent Iron Felix to their will.

Holding Iron Felix in My Hands
It was a short moment followed by handshakes, a group photo, and goodbyes.  Soon the main building of the Fesenkov Institute was just a reflection in the rear view mirror as we started our descent back into Almaty.  The memories of that day now mix with the memories of my own past spent in archives and observatories as I carried out research on the fate of Soviet astronomers in the 1930s.  As Russia today embarks on a glorification of its Soviet past, I choose to leave the Dzerzhinsky T-shirt in the back corner of a rarely-opened drawer . . . and treasure the moment when I held Iron Felix in my hands.


Saturday, January 10, 2015

A Central Asian Little Christmas

Christmas and New Year's brought with them the first respite I have known since I arrived in Astana at the end of September.  From a U.S. perspective, the city has had a holiday look to it since mid-November.  There was never any question but that this would be a white Christmas, and the white snow cover and holiday lights helped to brighten the short days and long nights.

The run-up to the holiday weeks were busy.  I returned to Tashkent for the first week of December for the US-Uzbekistan Annual Bilateral Consultations and for a series of side meetings on everything from water management to biodiversity.  The direct flight from Astana to Tashkent isn't even two hours in duration, but the difference in climate makes it seem as though the distance between must be much greater.  When I landed in Tashkent, I was greeted by green and brown.  There was little in the way of snow.  The temperature must have been +4-5C, which felt so warm in comparison with Astana that I spent much of my time without a coat at all.  The stores had fresh lettuce, which must be nearly worth its weight in gold in Astana if it can be found at all.  The week was a good one, and I got to spend two evenings of free time with my friends E1 and E2.  At the end of the week, however, I was ready to return to the cold.  Tashkent may be warm, but it is easier to breathe in Astana in many senses.


At the American Corner in Karaganda
Even Christmas week saw me in motion.  On December 22-23 I made a lightening two-day trip to Karaganda, Kazakhstan's fourth largest city.  Again I was in non-stop meetings on everything from methane gas to HIV/AIDS to ecotourism.  I also spoke at the city's American Corner.  The subject?  Hubble Space Telescope (HST), of course!  Wherever I go, that's what people want to hear about when they learn that I worked on HST.  Then I watch their interest wander as I begin talking about Fixed Head Start Trackers and quaternions.


Karganda has a holiday look as it also celebrates
the 80th anniversary of its founding.
The Embassy closed two hours early on Christmas Eve, and I rushed home to cook.  The Embassy had found a local supplier of turkeys, and I had bought a 15-pounder.  Between the turkey, side dishes, and desserts ranging from fruit cake to pumpkin pie, I had my hands full in the kitchen.  It was a small Christmas party the next day in comparison with those I used to have in Bucharest, but there were nevertheless seven guests at my table.  Hindered although I am by work and travel, I am nevertheless slowly beginning to make friends.


Christmas at Robyn's
The Embassy was closed both Christmas Day and the day after.  That being Friday, I had a four day weekend.  Bliss!  I felt I was on vacation with the extra comforting knowledge that Washington was on vacation too.  

The following week we were closed again for New Year's Day and the day after, thereby giving another four day weekend.  I did nothing special for New Year's other than talk with friends via Skype, but it was wonderful just to get a rest at last.  The best part of Skype that evening was seeing my granddaughter bounce up and down on my son's lap.  Watching her as the clock struck midnight in Astana was better than watching any ball drop.

It's also time that I introduced my young friend NN insofar as it is with her that I have my best memories of the holiday weeks.  She's 22-years-old and in her fifth year as a university student.  We met in my first week in Astana when I was wandering from one shop to another in the nearest shopping mall looking for facial powder.  NN was the saleswoman on duty in the shop where I finally made my purchase.  An ethnic Kazakh from a provincial city, she wanted to improve both her Russian and her English.  We exchanged telephone numbers, and the rest, as they say, is history.  

So there we were on January 2, NN and I, tramping through the snow in Pyramid Park across the street from where I live.  It was a cold but sunny and beautiful day, and we laughed uncontrollably as we walked on top of the snow, at times falling through where the snow surface was soft.  When we fell through, we had snow up to our knees.  Although I've seen no blizzards here, the snow comes every few days and doesn't melt.  It just keeps piling up.  At one point in our walk, NN tried doing a hand stand, and I responded by trying to do cartwheels.  We lay in the snow and made snow angels.  For a few minutes I, too, was 22-years-old again with a fun and excitingly new world at my feet.  (I'd post a few photos from that day, but I'm having fun using an old film camera and need to find where I can get the film developed in Astana!)


On Snowshoes for the First Time
I had one other social outing on the 3rd, this time with the Astana Outdoor Club.  This assignment is the most sedentary one I have had since joining the State Department, and living across the street from work doesn't help.  Although I'm riding my bicycle on rollers indoors, I have to make an effort to do so.  I signed up with the Outdoor Club almost as soon as I arrived, but due to work and travel, so far I've only been able to participate twice.  On January 3rd some two dozen of us headed out on snowshoes under a full moon on a frozen river outside Astana.  The temperature was about -15C, but as long as I kept moving, I stayed warm.  My only real problem was that my glasses first steamed over and then froze over completely.  I had everything I could do just to see the person in front of me.  We hiked on the river for two hours and then adjourned to a cafe for shashlyk.

It's now January 10.  Tomorrow I'm off for a week of TDY travel to Almaty.  The work year has begun.  As I return to working long hours, I am reminded of a New Year's greeting from a U.S. friend.  She wrote simply, "Be well and have a wonderful year as you begin to close the book on a very exciting career."  It is the first written reminder I have received that the official part of my work life is drawing to a close in a few short years . . . even as I tramp on frozen rivers, romp in the snow, and make snow angels like a 22-year-old.

Best 2015 wishes to all!

Saturday, December 6, 2014

If It's Tuesday, This Must Be Urgench

I'm drinking coffee out of my own mug that bears the state seal of Albania.  It was a gift from a special mom in Tirana over two years ago.  The coffee came from my own stove-top espresso maker.  The dishware is my own, and it's Sunday.  That must mean that I'm back in Astana, my home-on-the-steppe.  Not only that, this is HHE-day, the first time I've had my own dishes and cookware, not to mention bedding, winter clothes, and photos, in three months.  For any Foreign Service Officer, the day one receives her household effects (HHE) is a veritable holiday.  This is my Christmas in November.  Given that the ground is covered by a light blanket of white and the Esil' River is starting to freeze over, it might as well be the end of December.

Two weeks ago today I was in Bucharest.  No, dear Bucharest friends, I don't mean that I came and went without seeing any of you.  I mean I was in Bucharest mentally and time-wise.  You see, the cell phone that I use as my alarm clock while traveling is the phone that I used in Romania.  It's still set to Bucharest time, and I'm not changing it.  I look at that phone and think about what you must all be doing at this time of day.  Since I knew when I arrived that the time difference from Bucharest to Astana is +3 hours, I just made a +3 hour allowance when setting the alarm wake-up time.

So there I was two weeks ago, stretching and yawning after the alarm began playing Eric Anderson's Violets of Dawn at 7:30am.  That's my wake-up song.  TN, my assistant, was to come at 9:30am, and we were to go to the airport to catch our flight to Almaty, Kazakhstan's large southern city and former capital.  I had lots of time to pack my suitcase and enjoy an unhurried breakfast.  It was only after enjoying my first cup of coffee that I did a double take.  The clock in my kitchen said 9am.  I checked my Astana cell phones.  They also said 9am.  I had only 30 minutes to get dressed and throw clothes into my suitcase.  What had gone wrong?  I checked my Bucharest phone again.  It was now +4 hours from Bucharest to Astana, not +3.  Then it hit me.  Romania had gone from daylight time to standard time that Saturday-Sunday night, and my Romanian cell phone had automatically adjusted.  Kazakhstan is on standard time all through the year, and thus I am now an hour further away from Bucharest friends than I was when I arrived.

So there I was, foiled by what I thought was my good sense of time zones.  Somehow I got downstairs just as TN and the Embassy car arrived to pick me up.  When we got to the airport, we learned that our flight was an hour and a half late.  If I had known, I could have stayed on Bucharest time for the morning after all.

By mid-afternoon we were in Almaty.  What a difference there is between Almaty and Astana!  It was so warm that afternoon that I could walk around with my jacket unzipped.  The air pollution was palpable, reminding me of New York City in the 1960s, but the Tien Shan Mountains could still be seen through the smog.  We checked into the Holiday Inn and looked for our U.S. colleagues who had come for a workshop on seismology.  When we found them, we sat together for an hour to go over last-minute organizational issues.  Back in my hotel room, I discovered I had forgotten to bring panty hose.  I inquired at the desk and was given directions to a nearby underground mall where I bought the most expensive hose of my life.  For three pair I paid about $90USD.  That extra hour time difference between Kazakhstan and Romania had acquired a monetary value.

I woke early on Monday morning in an Almaty that had changed dramatically overnight.  Snow covered the ground and continued to fall.  We must have brought the Astana weather with us, and it was time again for the winter coat.

The seismology workshop had its formal opening.  Everything was going smoothly.  After lunch I left our U.S. colleagues in the capable hands of TN and headed back to the airport.


The Top of my Head Peaks
Through in the Back Row
The flight to Tashkent took an hour and a half, but by my watch it was only 30 minutes.  Crossing into Uzbek airspace, we had moved one time zone closer to Bucharest.  The plane had rolled up to a stop, and we passengers were collecting our things and heading for the exit doors.  Before I could get there, however, I found that I had arrived not in Tashkent but in the Twilight Zone.  The voice over the public address system was that of a flight attendant, but could there have been a trace of Rod Serling in the words, "Robyn McCutcheon, the VIP bus is waiting for you?"

In all of my flights in and out of Uzbekistan in 2008-10 (see I Wish I Was in the Land of Cotton), I had never been met as a VIP.  I wasn't sure I wanted to start now, but I had little choice.  Once in the bus, I hurriedly checked my hair and makeup.  When the bus got to the VIP lounge, a Reasonably High Personage was there to meet me and usher me through entry formalities.  In the freshest and most official voice I could muster, I settled into diplomatic talk about the importance of the Aral Sea conference I was about to attend.  It really was important, after all, no matter how much I was yearning for a nice bed and a good night's sleep.  An hour later I was checked into my hotel in downtown Tashkent, a city I had left in 2010 and did not think I would see again.  Yet here I was in old familiar surroundings.

My escort having departed, I stepped out of the hotel to be met by my good friends F1 and F2.  We spent the next three hours in a cafe, catching up and marveling that fate had brought us together again.  For those hours I was no longer a VIP but just Robyn.  For the first time since arriving in Astana at the end of September, I felt entirely relaxed and at home with good friends.  For those hours the loneliness of the distance to loved ones in Romania and in the US receded.


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Where was I?  I started to write this entry in early November, and here it is, the last day of the month as I again sit at an airport boarding gate.  I'm writing long-hand in my travel notebook and have no idea where I left off in the draft that sits incomplete somewhere in the Internet universe of web journals.  So let's presume I was on Monday and had just collapsed into my hotel bed in Tashkent after my reunion evening with F1 and F2.  (Amazingly, post-fact I see that my guess as to my stopping point was correct!)

On Tuesday morning my next flight touched down in the Khorezm region of Uzbekistan.  The ground is frosted with patches of white, but I hear another passenger comment that it's salt, not snow.  We are in Urgench.

Ours was a charter flight filled with diplomats, international aid workers, water management specialists, ecologists, and journalists.  As we pulled up to the terminal, we could see men and women in traditional Uzbek clothes waiting to greet us.  The women were holding round loves of Uzbek flat bread, known to Russians as lyepyoshkas.  Everywhere there were TV cameras, microphones, and reporters with notebooks.  There were at least as many of them as there were of us.  It would be that way for the next two days.

As we descended the stairs to the tarmac, enthusiastic young greeters waited to sort us onto buses by language.  The route from the airport took us down the main streets of Urgench past gleaming white buildings and green parks.  Everything had a proud air of newness.  In less than fifteen minutes we were at our hotel.

Urgench
Within the hour we were on our way again, first to an oncology center and then to a urology clinic.  Both were so new that one could still sense the smell of fresh paint.  It is no secret that the disappearance of the southern portion of the Aral Sea -- that portion that is on Uzbek territory -- has had a huge negative effect on the people living to the east of what was once one of the world's largest inland seas.  The salt we had seen at the airport was blown there from the dry sea bed.  Dust storms carry salt and agricultural chemical runoff hundreds of miles.  An island in the middle of the Aral Sea had once served as the site for Soviet biological weapon testing.

NASA Imagery Documents the
Disappearance of the Aral Sea
Our next stop was outside the city where dozens of young volunteers stood holding trees next to pre-dug holes.  Our task was to plant the trees, shoveling dirt over the roots and watering them with pre-filled buckets.  There was a showtime air about this Uzbek Arbor Day with many camera shutters clicking, but the enthusiasm of the volunteers was genuine.  All hope is gone that the southern Aral Sea will return, but these volunteers were doing their part to hold the soil in place and break the winds by planting thousands of trees.  They may have been part of a show for this one day, but their work would go on without us.


A Tree Grows in Urgench
The rest of that day went to tourism in the ancient but now largely reconstructed city of Khiva, the capital of a once independent, powerful Central Asian khanate until it fell to the Russian Empire in 1873.  It was my second time there, my first visit having been with my son in 2009.
The next long day was taken up by the conference itself.  As I listened to one presentation after another, I couldn't help but think how little had changed since I left Uzbekistan in 2010.  If anything, the predictions had become more dire.  Late in the evening, after a ceremonial dinner featuring stars of the Uzbek operatic stage, we all rode a bleary-eyed special charter back to Tashkent.

Khiva
Thursday morning saw me on a flight to Almaty, where I arrived at the seismology conference just in time to deliver closing remarks.  The loop back to Astana closed early Friday morning, but the week was not yet over for TN and me.  From morning to evening, we escorted a U.S. visitor for a day's worth of official meetings.  Only when we waved goodbye to her at the airport at 8pm that evening was our week over. . . .

Well, not really over.  Saturday was taken up by my writing reports on the Aral Sea and seismology conferences.  Sunday was the day to catch up on all the work e-mails I had missed while traveling, and Monday dawned to a new week and new tasks.

If my readers wonder why I write so little in this web journal, my description of this one week should give a clue as to why.  Not every week involves that much travel, but many do.  (I am finishing this draft while between sessions at yet another conference in Uzbekistan.)  All weeks are intensely busy, and the concept of a weekend break is fuzzy at best.  My hopes for a slowdown center around the New Year holiday.

Meanwhile, temperatures in Astana have dropped to -25C, and the winds are sometimes so strong that I have trouble walking.  The Esil' River has long since frozen over.  The howl of the nighttime wind is louder than anything I have heard in my life before now.  Safe in my bedroom, I pull my blankets about me and listen.  It may still be fall by the calendar, but in reality, the long Kazakhstan winter arrived some weeks ago.